Why?

Why am I doing this you ask?

Well, for several reasons...

First and foremost, as I stated in "The Goal", I want to help others like me, like us.  When we were in the NICU, I had questions.  I wanted somebody I could relate to.  I wanted someone who had been there and understood.  I was able to find it in a few other preemie mamas.  Now, I want to give that to others.  Whenever I hear of other moms and dads who find themselves in the NICU, my heart goes out to them. I have such empathy for them.  I just want to help make a tough situation a little bit better and a little bit easier.

Second - I'm proud of my story and I want to share it.  It didn't go the way I planned it but that's OK.  I have learned and am continuing to learn to accept the things that come my way and make the best of them.  My story is a success.  It's different and unique and special and most of all it's mine.

Third - I want to give perspective.  Perspective to myself and to others.  Sometimes we forget that things could be worse and we don't appreciate what we have.  Remembering where I have been and what I have come through gives me perspective and I hope it gives others a good perspective too.

Forth - I want to remember all the things i thought and felt and went through and I want Gray to know his story.

And lastly, this may help others, but it's helping me too.  The more I write, the more I talk, the more I get things out the better and more positive I feel.

On the other hand, I am NOT looking for pity or sympathy.  Yep, things were tough, I'll be the first to admit it, but it was special and wonderful and great too.